Not everyday…!!!!

not a soul
who knows
the pain
i go through again
& again
some nights
i fight
and then some
i lose
hugging myself
there is no word
i havent spoken
to make myself someone
im not
someone
who doesnt hurt
i carry a heart
so broken and hurt
i see everyone
looking at me
i see noone
looking at the
blues i wear
darkness i stear
finding myself on the
other side
i have cried
every now and then
wondering if and when
it wont hurt, no more
i wont feel empty anymore
today i just cant walk
voices wont talk
fallen little too harder
i cant go any further
so i lie here
telling myself
its okay to fall
its okay to bleed
hope
its okay to stop
not everyday
you can pretend
not everyday
you can fool
not everyday
not everyday…!!!!