Somedays stay with us forever…!!!!

Sometimes I think about the day Snowy came to our lives, the day i got my first pocket money, the day I fell in love, the day I met my best friend, the day I wrote my first poem, the day I wrote first story, the day I acted in a play, the day I was made house captain in school, the day I won my first house cup as a captain, the day I had my first crush, the day I became 17, the day I lost love, the day I walked through my college gate, the day I had my first glass of alcohol, the day I thought college was the best thing about life, the day I bid goodbye to friends for some hundredth time, the day I got my first scooter, the day I was praised by a teacher for my debate, the day I got my first cheque, the day I met my superhero, the day I thought I was going to die, the day I wanted do die, the day I spoke for the first time, the day I found out i have people who love me despite knowing, the day I wanted to live again, the day I bought my first phone, the day I bought my car, the day I completed my one year at work, the day my parents indirectly told me they were proud of me, the day I saw life take a 360, the day I had my first and thousandth panic attack, the day i searched for the depression online, the day I started writing diaries, the day I started blogging, the day I started lying and hiding from friends I once thought were my life, the day i saw my mother cry, the day I came back from work smiling and singing I love my work, the day I never wanted anything do change, the day I thought nothing would change now, the day I met music, the day i wrote Dominique’s first page, the day I went to Srinagar, the day I had my worst haircut, the day I won my first and second chess tournament, the day I lost against, the day I lost, the day I won against my biggest opponent, the day i won against my boss, the day I got my first surprise birthday party, the day I cried and I didnt know how to stop myself, the day I again wanted to die, the day i realised im a superhero, the day I was scared I would lose my mind, the day I stood awake all night worried about Snowy, the day he had his operation and I saw him on the strecher and the day he died…

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I have a victory song…just waiting for my Dawn!!!!

I have a song ready for the day I will get my independence…its my victory song. Tounge Tied by Grouplove. I will dance like crazy on the the day I get my dawn, but problem is I dont know if I will ever get my freedom. My independence day would be the day I get to say goodbyes to the lies,fear,pretending and emptiness.

But then it is always good to be ready. You never know when life gives what you want…right? Plus, im hopelessly in love with the idea of bumping into a miracle one day on a corner of life.

Im a depressed soul who breathes on dreams, hope and vision of a dawn…the day of sunshine.

Goodnight world

I wish I could live a movie…

I think I lost my data again…which means I also lost my rough pages on Dominique. Hope I will get the backup. Some loses are too personal and complicated for one to talk about or others to understand.

I saw Iron Man3 today and I liked it. Ofcourse, nothing can match the charisma of Avengers but I still loved it. For those who like Gwyneth…there is more of Peppers compared to other movies in terms of action. As for Robert Downey Jr…he is always awesome.

My mood is weird right now. Dont know why so I will say goodnight and see you tomorrow.

Goodnight World!

How hard is it to get a hug?

I dont know why im crying, probably my mind is exhausted and it just needs some rest. I also want to blame it on the insomnia, sleep deprivation and work pressure.

It was a super super tiring day at Gotham. I think for past 2-3 weeks everything is so tiring and exhausting.

I cant stop missing friends, happy days and snowy. Im ok, i just need to lie down close my eyes and fall dead till morning with no midnight awaking or no dreams. Am so exhausted that even the thought of waking up to a Friday isn’t making me smile. How i wish i could hug someone right now? I cant even hug Snowy and irritate him like i used to do. I miss him so badly.

I need two things, Dark chocolate icecream and good night sleep. Will try to sleep now hopefully i will fall asleep and as for the icecream, i know what’s my agenda for tomorrow…a trip to Baskin and Robins.

I miss my friends too…

Good Night World…!!!!

P.S I bought a new phone. Will upload picture tomorrow.

 

Love happens to me too…True Story!!!!

Have you ever had a moment where you saw someone and fell in a silly crush kind of love? Even though that person is just a stranger who would just walk by and you would never see him/her again?

Happens to me someone times. Sometimes I see someone and get this crazy crush where I can’t stop looking at that person and to make sure I don’t come out as a creepy stalker I have to act like I didn’t notice the person, whereas the truth is I can’t stop looking at that person. I remember a family wedding where I had this silly first look crush on my cousin’s friend.

Yesterday I saw someone in a coffee house and I fell in love with that person, the eyes, the hair…While I had my eyes on that person, all I could hear were voices in my head shaking their head and murmuring among themselves about what a lunatic I’m.

Me: Whoa!

Voices in my head: What? Did you find a word? Is it a Double Word score?

Me: I think I’m in love. Look.

Voices in my head: Huh! Seriously? Be cool

Me: I am just saying

Voices in my head: Love? You don’t even know that person. Plus have you seen yourself in mirror?

Me: Yes I’m sure I look better than the creepy voices inside my head

Voices in my head: Below the belt

Me: Sue me

Voices in my head: Need we remind you…you can’t fall in love

Me: Okay but I can admire a good-looking person with great hair, pretty eyes and …

Me: Wait where did…?

Voices in my head: Left. So what were you saying?

Me: Love something…I don’t know. I …

Voices in my head: What smarty pants?

Me: I think I just lost my scrabble game

Voices in my head: You know why?

Me: I was busy falling in love?

Voices in my head: Nooo…there is no LOOVVEE…

Voices in my head: You lost because you don’t know how to use Q with 10 points

Voices in my head: Man! You need a dictionary

Voices in my head: Tonight we will study words with Q, Z, Y…

Me: I bet that person noticed I was looking. I’m not even dressed well. I should have worn something better.

Voices in my head: beating-head-against-the-wall

 

 

 

Why Little, why wont you sleep?

Its 3am and I have work tomorrow. Why am I up? Was watching HoP. Cute movie but now I’m wondering why couldn’t I wait for weekend.
Okay! So I guess am screwed tomorrow. Already my boss was all angry bird on me today.

I miss Snowy.

Better go now. Goodnight World!

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Liebster Blog Award….!!!!!

Since all my guests have left and the wedding is over, I’m back to my world of peace, stories, fiction, sweet darkness and blogging. Its funny how comforting and sweet darkness and aloofness feels when I’m choking on pretenses among people who love me but don’t really know me.

Before I took the break I was awarded Liebster Blog Award nomination by lovely and super strong Jack Joseph’s Mom. I want to thank her for considering me worthy of the nomination and for being so kind. Jack’s Mom taught me loving what you lost is okay no matter if you are the only one grieving, no matter how much time it has been.

So thank you for the nomination my friend.

Rules are simple, say 11 things about yourself, answer 11 questions that have been asked by the person who nominated you and award the nomination to 11 people while creating 11 new questions for the nominees.

Okay here are the 11 things about me:

1-      I have always been tomboyish and now that I look back I don’t think I ever thought I would own green, purple, white and electric blue pants. I wore nothing but blue denim and thought anything else was weird.

2-      I can’t give up on coffee and junk food even though I was once hospitalized because of these things

3-      I believe I have a split personality or something because I’m always a different person when I’m with people and a different person when I’m alone.

4-      I lie a lot to people I love because it’s easy to lie than explain why I’m being difficult sometimes

5-      I can’t stop having dreams where my Snowy comes back to me, had the first one the very next night of his demise

6-      I think I will get a Tattoo soon, hopefully very soon

7-      I want to win NanoWriMo for once

8-      I want to meet MegRyan just once or Winona Ryder

9-      I hated the very first cup of coffee of my life, hated it big time

10-   I once wrote a play, which was chosen for the annual day event of our school. I also played a role in my own play. That was the first biggest achievement of my life where I felt proud of me, because I have always believed I’m the black sheep of the family.

11-   I wish to be born as a singer in my next birth

 

Now the questions asked to me by Jack Joseph’s Mom

  1. What gets you up in the morning?

Earlier it used to my love my dog but now it’s my Alarm and my mom. If it was up to me I wouldn’t get up before 12 because I don’t like my work anymore.

  1. If you could go anywhere, anywhere, where would you go?

Ireland for many reasons and one of them being the movies I have seen

  1. If you saw a vehicle accident – would you stop?  Why or why not?

I have tried to stop once when I saw one but by the time I came to halt I was far and had so much of traffic behind me. So I pulled aside and tried to see if the guy was okay and when I saw he was and people were helping him, I drove away because it was way too difficult for me to go back with the traffic and it being the one way lane.

  1. What is your most played song on your iPod (or whatever you listen to music on)?

I have blackberry phone my only access to music and I don’t know what the most played song is. You got me thinking, because I listen to songs all day while I’m working, even when I’m home and trying to work out, even now when I’m blogging and sometimes I listen to it while trying to sleep. All day I’m on my phone but I don’t know which song I listen to the most. Maybe For You by Angus and Julia. I think.

  1. What is your favorite way to exercise?

Rope Skipping

  1. If you could choose to be a certain age forever, what would it be and why?

I am scared of growing old but I don’t know which age I want to stop aging at.

  1. What would be your first purchase if you won the lottery?

If I win a lot of it like crazy lot of it I would buy a car for my brother. He is crazy and irritating and we fight a lot but I would still buy him a nice sexy car, because I know it would make him ultra happy. If I win not that much, then I would probably buy a bigger place for my parents. I know they don’t like this small apartment that much.

If only I was rich enough to buy them a bigger place.

  1. What celebrity do you get mistaken for?

No one but I would love to imagine myself as MegRyan or Avril Lavigne.

  1. What is the hardest thing you ever had to do?

Say goodbye to my Snowy. He died on 1st of March right in front of me in my bed. He was ill, in pain and died and there was nothing I could do. When I touched him, he had stopped breathing and he felt cold like he was no longer there. I can’t get over that day. I miss him so badly and it kills me when I enter home after a long day because he is no longer there to hug me, welcome me and tell me I was missed.

  1. What would be your most perfect meal?  Not just breakfast, lunch or dinner… but what would be on the plate/table.

If I have to name an Indian dish I would say Kadi Chawal with pickle and if I have to name universal one then its Pasta anyday…Pasta with mushroom would be great.

  1. What is your most favorite memory?

So many of them. My interview day has to be the winner for now. My Team Lead welcomed me inside the interview room with a smile and I realized there is nothing to be afraid of. Since then she has not only become my mentor my best friend but my sister too. And this job made me grow up as a person, learn things, become independent and see pride in my parent’s eyes even though it’s a small job. That day is memorable for it became the door to many amazing days.

Now people I want to nominate:

http://transcendingbordersblog.wordpress.com/

http://rumpydog.com/

http://acflory.wordpress.com/

http://talesoftwistedfibers.wordpress.com/

http://starsrainsunmoon.com/

http://dinktography.wordpress.com/

http://howanxious.wordpress.com/

http://depressedpessimist.wordpress.com/

http://ilikephotoblog.wordpress.com/

http://dreamingabouteveryday.wordpress.com/

http://cricketmuse.wordpress.com/

My 11 questions:

Friends or The Big Bang Theory or How I Met Your Mother? What’s your pick?

Do you judge people based on their country or religion?

Are you a morning person or night owl?

What was the craziest profession you had on your mind as a kid?

Beatles or Beiber? What you prefer?

Do you read news everyday?

What’s your favourite crazy fun thing to do when by yourself?

Do you enjoy going out without umbrella in rain?

If left alone in a big shopping mall with lots of money, what would you buy clothes or gadgets? You cant have both.

Have you ever made a mix tape?

What’s your favourite book?