Well guess what…i have the title for my story for NaNoWrimo even though I’m still not sure if i can work but hey i have a story, a name and a song. Can do lot with those three things.
Once a class mate from college said that she noticed something in my stories, she said that every story i have written has someone dying in it. True. I don’t know why i never noticed that before but maybe it’s because i write suspense and tragedy together. Most of my stories are drama with darkness in them. A friend of mine was, few days ago, discussing a show with me and said that she finds that little too dark and i realised isn’t that what i write.
Maybe i could have been a happy writer if life would have been different but then i realise if life was sunshine i wouldn’t have been a writer at all. I found writing when i realised im different from everyone.
Today im so tightly wrapped around my darkness, my truth and the pain that it is hard to imagine a life without it. I mean a Sunny Shiny Me? How weird would that be?
I wish i could remember my first story but i don’t. I do remember that i started writing in 9th grade, poems, stories and my daily diaries. Because i was an angry and lone teenager back then who always used to be fight at home and feel that her family doesn’t care. Not true. My anger is still alive but now i know why im angry and at whom. Im not angry at my parents or my brother or my friends, im angry at the world in general for it is biased and racist and judgmental and lives on rules carved on stones.
My most favourite poem, as written by me, is titled Castle and i think i still have it somewhere. Also What’s my Diagnosis? Is one of my favourite poems. I like Jane Doe but i think my favourite story would be Dominique or Crossroads, if and ever i got to finish them.
I have an idea; i am going to create a different page now with my poems. I don’t write much poems but i do have few that i am proud about.
Voices: Hey Writer Girl
Voices: We think you made your point
Me: And what would that be?
Voices: You love writing. And you are awesome. Seriously?
Voices: Are you going to make a song on it next? A love song for you by you…maybe?
Voices: Boring and Creepy and Weird…really very weird…
Me: What do you want?
Voices: Didn’t you just book online movie tickets for tomorrow evening?
Voices: Hmm, nothing just…
Voices: Its 2:15 am, you will sleep by 2:30, get up late, go late and that would mean…
Me: Feck…that would mean i won’t be able to leave on time for my movie.
Voices: Whoa! You do have a brain. You should use it more often.
Me: I should get a lobotomy
Me: You guys live in there
Voices: Whatever…2:18 am…Tick Tock Tick…