Dear stranger, I hope we meet again…

Have you ever had a day where everything is fine until your eyes fall on a face, you can’t stop looking at. You end up looking at a stranger you have never met before, or talked to before, yet for some unexplainable reason you are being attracted too. Not the romantic kind of attraction but a strange pull that you just can’t explain.

So you pretend to reply to a text, you pretend to check the menu card and you pretend to do whatever you were doing before the person showed up in your line of vision, but what you really are doing is stealing glances at that stranger. Because you just want to learn a thing or two about that person, talk to him/her, have a cup of coffee with him/her and maybe even be friends.

And then the person walks away, smiling and laughing at a joke shared with his/her friend, leaving you staring at your shoes because even after rocking back and forth on your feet you’re still standing there, having a mental conversation with a person you had never met before and probably won’t ever see again.

Have you ever had that kind of a day?

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Somedays stay with us forever…!!!!

Sometimes I think about the day Snowy came to our lives, the day i got my first pocket money, the day I fell in love, the day I met my best friend, the day I wrote my first poem, the day I wrote first story, the day I acted in a play, the day I was made house captain in school, the day I won my first house cup as a captain, the day I had my first crush, the day I became 17, the day I lost love, the day I walked through my college gate, the day I had my first glass of alcohol, the day I thought college was the best thing about life, the day I bid goodbye to friends for some hundredth time, the day I got my first scooter, the day I was praised by a teacher for my debate, the day I got my first cheque, the day I met my superhero, the day I thought I was going to die, the day I wanted do die, the day I spoke for the first time, the day I found out i have people who love me despite knowing, the day I wanted to live again, the day I bought my first phone, the day I bought my car, the day I completed my one year at work, the day my parents indirectly told me they were proud of me, the day I saw life take a 360, the day I had my first and thousandth panic attack, the day i searched for the depression online, the day I started writing diaries, the day I started blogging, the day I started lying and hiding from friends I once thought were my life, the day i saw my mother cry, the day I came back from work smiling and singing I love my work, the day I never wanted anything do change, the day I thought nothing would change now, the day I met music, the day i wrote Dominique’s first page, the day I went to Srinagar, the day I had my worst haircut, the day I won my first and second chess tournament, the day I lost against, the day I lost, the day I won against my biggest opponent, the day i won against my boss, the day I got my first surprise birthday party, the day I cried and I didnt know how to stop myself, the day I again wanted to die, the day i realised im a superhero, the day I was scared I would lose my mind, the day I stood awake all night worried about Snowy, the day he had his operation and I saw him on the strecher and the day he died…

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Love happens to me too…True Story!!!!

Have you ever had a moment where you saw someone and fell in a silly crush kind of love? Even though that person is just a stranger who would just walk by and you would never see him/her again?

Happens to me someone times. Sometimes I see someone and get this crazy crush where I can’t stop looking at that person and to make sure I don’t come out as a creepy stalker I have to act like I didn’t notice the person, whereas the truth is I can’t stop looking at that person. I remember a family wedding where I had this silly first look crush on my cousin’s friend.

Yesterday I saw someone in a coffee house and I fell in love with that person, the eyes, the hair…While I had my eyes on that person, all I could hear were voices in my head shaking their head and murmuring among themselves about what a lunatic I’m.

Me: Whoa!

Voices in my head: What? Did you find a word? Is it a Double Word score?

Me: I think I’m in love. Look.

Voices in my head: Huh! Seriously? Be cool

Me: I am just saying

Voices in my head: Love? You don’t even know that person. Plus have you seen yourself in mirror?

Me: Yes I’m sure I look better than the creepy voices inside my head

Voices in my head: Below the belt

Me: Sue me

Voices in my head: Need we remind you…you can’t fall in love

Me: Okay but I can admire a good-looking person with great hair, pretty eyes and …

Me: Wait where did…?

Voices in my head: Left. So what were you saying?

Me: Love something…I don’t know. I …

Voices in my head: What smarty pants?

Me: I think I just lost my scrabble game

Voices in my head: You know why?

Me: I was busy falling in love?

Voices in my head: Nooo…there is no LOOVVEE…

Voices in my head: You lost because you don’t know how to use Q with 10 points

Voices in my head: Man! You need a dictionary

Voices in my head: Tonight we will study words with Q, Z, Y…

Me: I bet that person noticed I was looking. I’m not even dressed well. I should have worn something better.

Voices in my head: beating-head-against-the-wall

 

 

 

Being a Super Hero is exhausting…!!!!

Somethings you can’t go back to…a line from a song I heard. How true is this? So true. There are so many things I wish to relive again but can’t, because we have found a way to send a robot to another planet but we are yet to discover time-travelling science.
It was one of the hardest, most tiring and exhausting week ever. Worst was the friday. Today I think I had it, at one point I thought I was going to have a breakdown. Truth is I like it when I have a busy day or week, because it makes everything go by so quickly and I have less time to think. But it also means I end up pushing my mind and heart beyond their working limit. Result, I end up physically and emotionally drained which can be seen in my transition from Batman to Hulk. How I wish I could go back to the girl who never had a temper.

There are so many phases in my life I wish I could revisit. Pattern of my life has been simple, after a horrible 9th grade I found best years with 10th, 11th and 12th. After a lonely first year of graduation I found awesome 2nd and 3rd year. After a dark one year of diploma I found four amazing year of my first job. But now, the pattern won’t repeat its been a year of changes with everything so hard, yet I see no daylight or dawn. Dammit! I think its all because of global warming. Well I needed something or someone to blame. 😛

For past few days we have been taking snowy for daily vaccination. Poor baby had two injections everyday which is too much for him. He has been too restless because of it. Seeing him ill is always hard on me. Sends me back to that operation day.

Only good thing about today, I got my license slip which means in a weeks time I’m going to have my license again. I lost mine when I lost my wallet.

Today I’m sort of missing the Kashmir trip. When I was there, for some reason, I felt protected and less scared which is ironical considering the fact its not a safe city. Maybe because I was thousands of kilometers away from my daily life. Today I wanted to be somewhere far again.

I wish I could take a train to Delhi or a plane to Hyderabad, but I can’t.

Today, this guy gave me a link to a job vacancy for deputy manager content writer in some big firm. Weird because we aren’t friends and don’t even belong to same team. This left me wondering if he is the guy. I know there is a guy with crush on me at my workplace but I don’t know who. Strange, everytime I find out someone is crushing on me I feel bad for the poor guy.

I haven’t written a thing for Dominique for past few days and I am running out of time to prepare my assignments. But I just don’t get the time and energy. I think I have to manage a weekend with my attention to the assignment or I will spend rest of my life feeling guilty, of wasting money on admission.

The change in internet provider has left me without any internet access. Stupid company. Can’t download a thing.

Tomorrow my badminton friend wants me to meet her boyfriend. She wants us to bond. Problem is I find it awkward to make friends with anyone. But I will go, smile, have the coffee and try to have a good time. Also finally I get to chop off my hair. Haircut day…yay!

Time to go now, apologies for not visiting other blogs, will come to your blog asap just waiting for access to internet. Its not easy to surf other sites via Blackberry.

Song for today- I wanted to say Brown Eyes by Gaga but I think I have posted that one so, maybe Glee version of Turning Table by Adele.

Goodnight World!