Last few days have been so good to me, specially the weekends. While last weekend i was visiting my person and her family, this weekend was all about eating, writing, episodes, coffee and writing…yes i know i said writing twice cause i frkn wrote a lot. God! i love long weekends.
Funny thing is the story i started as an exercise to get out of my writer’s block has turned out to be a project in itself. Let’s see.
So, two amazing weekends are over and from tomorrow i’m back to Gotham. Guess, its time to get out of fun zone.
Maybe God works in mysterious ways or maybe there is no God…all i know, i would want to believe there is God and God has a plan for me.
Funny im saying that because im not a religious person. My mom would want me to be one. Im not. I just want to believe because sometimes i get tired of being angry.
Today was Diwali, one of my favourite festivals, and i had a good day. It was just like any other Sunday but more colorful one with all the lights and crackers and celebration. Though i don’t do crackers anymore. Im all save the planet person.
I missed Snowy alot today, i think my whole family did. Every Diwali he used to be this scared little kid. He hated crackers and the noise. Today after 13 years we celebrated Diwali without him.
I guess i should go, its very late. Im officially thinking of not doing NaNoWriMo this year.
I wasted the day doing nothing, could have written or gotten me a much needed haircut but I didn’t was too busy pitying myself. Only good thing I did was cleaning my wardrobe and dusting my room. Also helped mum with Diwali lights, candles and wrapping gifts.
I need something nice to snap out of my state of mind, though next 2-3 days are filled with nice things. Yet, I don’t know how to get out of my given-up mood. Everything is so good right now, I’m on a vacation with exception of Monday, its Diwali, world around me is all bright and twinkling with lights…but I can’t smile. At one point a part of me argued with me so hard, begged me to go to city with my brother, get me a haircut and shop a little. But I stood there fixing my wardrobe not wanting to move. It felt like if I moved I would fall into million pieces.
Now, I regret not getting the haircut it’s not easy to go to city with 5 days of Gotham. Dammit! Little why the fck do you have to sulk and waste precious time? My NaNoWriMo is going to die with the pace I’m moving.
Got to go I won’t sleep before I make today’s count more than 1500.
Anybody who believes diamonds are a girl’s best friend…has definitely never met me. Don’t even ask why I said that.