So life says ceasefire…I don’t know if its for a day or a week, but I know I can feel my pulse again and im breathing. Yay!
But stupid cold and fever won’t let me cherish the moment. Now, all I need to do is manage next 9 hours tomorrow and I have my two days of rest. No one knows what hit me and what went through my head except my one super friend. I don’t know what I would have without her, because I was losing my mind.
I wish there was some miracle for me, wish there was someone who would save me. But it’s a battle that I will lose and nothing can change that. So all I need is to make myself strong which crazy because I thought I was strong. Some Nights is my anthem right now as I listen to it on replay mode.
I cant live if im not living as me. Not being me can be lethal for me.
Okay people time for my medicine and a nap. Hope I wake up well enough to go to work, play Scrabble in evening and come home to series of episodes waiting for me. Fingers crossed!
The cold, fever and the fact that I have cried too much makes me all dizzy and weak. I think I’m falling in love with Scrabble.
Won’t be able to check other blogs today as I’m blogging via phone, because I don’t have stamina to sit n use laptop. Feel sick like sick sick.
Yes, I made it to the movie. I wouldn’t have given up on it because its like once a blue mood situation. My parents rarely go out for movies or other outings, so if I find a way to make them I do it. I wonder if they liked the movie, I do know my father didn’t.
So last night I turn of the light and try to sleep. I sleep but am awake too. My body is in pain, I feel bad. At 4 am I woke up and went to washroom. A 2minutes trip made me almost faint. Reminded me of that one day in hospital when I could hear my heartbeat out loud.
Anyhow, I don’t think I slept after that. Next thing I know its almost noon and I open my eyes still feeling weak but okay.
I told myself to get up and not give up. My body is awesome it worked well throughout the movie but then, I being me, ordered icetea. Mistake. I start feeling the chill again and next thing I know I could barely sit and watch the movie. Good thing I had already seen it.
I know how badly I wanted the movie to get over. Now am home, in bed, feeling sick. Stupid fever and bodyache. I wonder if am going Gotham tomorrow.