Sometimes I wonder what would have I done if there was no YouTube…I mean all the songs how would have I survived without them. People, religion and money can’t save me only music can and of course fiction. Sometimes music helps me in feeling the emotions I can’t feel and sometimes it helps me in turning them off.
Today I cooked veg rice pulao which looked good, aroma was awesome only issue it needed little more salt. Rest was perfect so may be 3 out of 5 by me. I wish my mom was here to taste it. I clicked the picture and sent it to my brother’s phone so he could show it to her. Yes I’m the girl who seeks approval even though I don’t listen to people. But I secretly seek approval of two people in my life.
For past three days all I have done is watch Castle and Gossip Girl, stayed in my room and argued with my inner self on not writing or reading. Though i did take a break from my aloofness today and went out with a friend for pancakes and coffee. I love blueberry pancakes with cream. In fact I want it right now but it’s too late.
My eyes are closing now, as I watch Girl, Interrupted. I think I should sleep, I think Winona Ryder is awesome, I think I have seen another movie that has a plot like Girl Interrupted, I think I can watch this movie hundred times again, I think I am going to sleep now…to be honest I can’t think anymore. The sleep derivation I have given to myself for no reason whatsoever has destroyed my ability to think.