We are, what we are, what we always will be…Ignorant!!!!

Ignorance is what makes people with mental illness suffer more; not theirs but our ignorance towards the subject.

Why do I say that? Someone in Gotham was talking to me about BiPolar. It was a small, silly and ordinary conversation but when it was over I felt sad. Not many people know what depression or mental disorders like BiPolar, PTSD, BPD is, not that it should be a part of our school textbooks but not knowing the thing is one reason we never understand someone who actually goes through it.

For example, I have stomach issues directly caused by my messed up head and also because I was a bad eater once. Now, when I am usually in a situation where I want to avoid something for my stomach or I’m having a bad stomach day, for no reason, I often get to hear things like ‘That’s all in your head’. Dude! That always hits me below the belt. Never for once a person who knows acid reflux or anxious stomach would ever say that ‘Metal taste? Oh that’s so crazy just eat something sweet’

So, when you meet someone with mood swings, totally unexplainable, never call that person crazy or something like ‘You need a good day out’. Don’t you think that person has tried everything from good day, good song, good movie to every other effin good thing available. Some pain and hurt and sadness are not made up by that person. They are there.

Just few days back, 2-3 people around me were making fun of a guy saying things like ‘O he is so gay’. I was there, I was suppose to pitch in something and I felt so ashamed of being there and not being able to tell them how insanely insensitive and wrong it is to joke like that. I wanted to turn around say, you mister are a male whore, you lady are an effin loser and you sir are also a loser in capital letters. I didn’t. I swear I wanted to so badly but I’m a coward or more or less I’m just one of them. So, I just pretended to be busy and asked why they think he was gay and as soon as the topic shifted, I excused myself and walked away. You know, we are what we are and will always be…Ignorant.

If you and I make fun of someone’s weight, height, health, pain, moods, sexuality, color or accent, it’s not their fault…it’s our…our ignorance towards them and the thing we think is so weird about them.

P.S Just ignore my rant and enjoy this beautiful song

huh!

I think my body has had enough of the blues, its kind of going crazy on me like its angry or something. Huh! Now what did i do?

I realized one thing, actually its a discovery, that i hate music when im not well. Imagine that. I mean i cant stay away from my headphones and today i couldn’t even like one song. I hated them all, Avril, Brandi, FUN…you name them i didn’t like them. Whoa! Weird.

My head is kind of going left and right today, so i think i should just sleep early. What i hate about falling sick is not the pain but the fact that it’s the time when everyone would tell you all the things you did wrong. The lifestyle, the eating habits, the ignorance towards health etc etc etc. Guess that happens.

I kind of had an argument and Im angry right now, really Hulk angry but unfortunately im so exhausted that i can’t feel the anger, it’s like am angry but i have no energy to act like an angry person. Weird. This day can’t get any weirder.

superman coffee

Got to go.

Goodnight World!