she is a girl who pretends to a be a super hero with loud music in her portable stereo…

She is stronger than you know

She is a super hero

Fighting for the grace

wearing a different face

everyday she gets up

picks up the pieces

and puts them together

no matter what season or weather

she never for once stops to

breathe or smile when the world needs

even when she is hurting

and the heart bleeds

She has a secret too

a love story & heartache so blue

darkness to fight

day & night

as she wears a suit

in pursuit

of happiness hidden

and out of sight

she lives with a secret

that makes her different

which is why she has spent

every day every second

wearing a face to blend

in a world of normal

but deep down

inside somewhere behind her frown

she is a girl

who wants to pull on

the stitches of the face

she wears

she is just a girl

who wants to embrace

her stories

her miseries

the pain and the scars

she wants to see the stars

with a naked face

being  a part of the creator

& his grace

but she is a super hero

a fighter

she looks weaker

but is stronger

than you know

hidden behind a cape & a disguise

she falls hard yet she rise

every day every night

hiding in a plain sight

she is a girl

who pretends to a be a super hero

with loud music

in her portable stereo…

 

Little wants to go back to being little…!!!!

Today I started with a new book and I have decided to read a little, everyday. Too much of TV shows are keeping me away from reading and writing. Fact is I indulge in marathon fictional shows to stay busy and away from my inner turbulence. But now its time for me to give time to other things too.

Thankyou Internet God for my internet service are down just when I needed a push towards reading.

I also need to, now, get back to my daily workout. Cause I cant let myself be like this. Unfortunately for people like me who cant cry out loud, both the patient and shrink live in same body. Self destruction and self help go hand in hand in my case.

I have few pictures on my wardrobe. Pictures of family, friends, snowy and few from my childhood. In one picture I see a small very small girl wearing her father’s army cap and smiling while giving a salute to whoever was taking the picture. Everytime I look at that picture of mine, I wonder if I was happy back then. Truly happy. If I ever knew how life was going to turn out. I look happy and safe from future.

I want to go back to being her, the little girl in that photograph. But fact is I cant go back being a little girl anymore, the girl who knew nothing about world and its strange ways.

So I just try to be a self proclaimed super hero who has secrets, who has a battle and who is loved by everyone because noone knows that the face behind the mask is another average person made of flesh and hone.

Weird I wasnt suppose to write an emotional blog just an update on my plans about focusing on reading.

Goodnight world!

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