Sometimes music breaks your trust…!!!!

Even bundle of episodes of Castle and Gossip Girl, hours of music and a cup of chocolate icecream in freezing cold day couldn’t help me avoid the stream of tears that have been threatening since morning. It wasn’t a good day and of course I knew I was going to have trouble going through the day with my record of sleep, but not everything that happened was about my inability to sleep on time.

I was a misery all day because I could not focus or even think straight but I knew the cloud of blues were just the sleepy me, but the conversation I had with  my mother was real. It wasn’t my sleepy mind’s hyper reaction to everything.

Truth is I feel bad for being so different form people in my life because I think it makes them worry and somewhat disappointed. Anyhow, I know I just need to lie down and when I will wake up I will be fresh and nothing will hurt. At least I hope.

Right now, all I want to do is just hug someone and cry till I sleep. I wish I wasn’t me but then that’s a lie too. I want to be me, I think I’m a nice person. well that would be a lie too, i think im awesome only not the kind people should have around them.

 

 

 

Excuse me i’m high on writing…!!!!

Even though it’s like 1:30 am and I am all ready for a horribly sleepy day tomorrow, I’m happy and smiling. Ask me why, ask me why. I wrote 800+ words for Jane Doe. Yes, I worked on Jane Doe. I almost feel like dancing on my bed but my Snowy wont like it, as he is busy sleeping. So I do imaginary dance inside my head for now.

Last night I created a Twitter account which I have no idea why I did because I have no friends on Twitter. I  have friends but I don’t socialize anymore to know if my friends are on Twitter. I guess it’s just a craze of using the Twitter app on my phone, like it was calling me so I made an account. I can do some really weird stuff and wonder why I did it. Doesn’t matter because I just created 800 words. Yes, I did.

So I’m so hooked to Castle that even though its super late and I have Gotham tomorrow I won’t go to bed without watching the S4 finale. S4 E22 was so awesome I was like whoa! It almost got me. It’s really getting cold day by day and I hate that because if it makes me lazy and not want to get out of bed.

I got to go now because my download says 11 minutes for the episode. Yay! I’m doomed for tomorrow but I’m high on writing right now so who cares.

 

In my world, i nailed NaNoWrimo…!!!!

I haven’t had a good night sleep for a while now.

Worked on over 25,000 words in two days.

lost 4 words somewhere.

Couldn’t finish NaNo on time.

Clock struck 12 with me at 46,000 words.

But im so freaking happy.

I wrote 500000 words…i would like to count the lost data too.

So i may not have 50,oooo words to upload before 12, but i had actually worked on 50k. Lost one counted in my land. Hi-Five to me…!!!!

Will be back tomorrow, right now im happy, sleep deprived and on verge of falling asleep on my laptop.