It’s 2:20 am Monday and I’m not sleepy, which is so not good…!!!!

I wanted to count stars but then I decided to go with few of my favorite things/people…

My person

My baby best friend (let’s call him Spiderman shall we)

The stories in my head

Characters I read about

My high school best friend

Agnes Obel

TV shows & fictional Characters

All the Meg Ryan and Winona Ryder movies

Jodie Foster

My Laptop and MS Word

My headphones and every song in my players

My All Stars

The world I zone out to

My new puppy who I hope would love me as much as Snowy did


My car

Grey’s Anatomy


Book shops


Virginia Woolf Quotes

Mississippi Mud Ice cream

Brandi Carlile

Ellen De Generes


Indian food

Eiffel Tower



Singing in my car

You’ve Got Mail

Bouquet of newly sharpened pencils

My Tattoo

My book collection


P.S Agnes Obel’s music is one of the many things keeping me afloat…

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Its monsoon outside and inside…!!!

You know what I love…sound of rain. Yes, I love sound of rain, the smell of it in the air and the feel of it as it falls all over the place.

I have been trying to stay away from blogging for few days for simple reason, because my mind is not working. Nothing is working. I can’t read, can’t write or do anything. I’m lost. I’m in monsoon phase, not the real one but the phase where im a cry-baby; all i do is burst into tears anytime of the day, any place. Awkward, when it happens at Gotham because man I have people around and too many trips to washroom would only mean I have had the worst breakfast. I m not trying to be funny, I can’t be funny though I feel lot better right now. Probably it’s the rain outside.

Today, I gave the silliest quote to a friend “Hope is a soap my friend and I am running out of it”. And my friend said I can buy you another one and I ended up laughing.

I am dying for a day off like a day when I can lock myself in my room, stay dirty, not brush, eat instant noodles, drink coffee and attach my phone with the speakers in my room at loud volume. Yeah! I want that.

I’m out of energy and it takes everything to get up and drive to work. I’m mad at a friend for she has moved to another country.

I found another friend this week, she has been a great help. Everyone say hello to Sara Bareilles:

I have to go now because if I didn’t sleep on time today, I don’t think I would be able to survive my Friday. Super sleep deprived, running out of positivity, blue and cry baby – pretty much what I’m lately. I got to go, you guys enjoy the song.

Time to be Batman again…!!!!

Two days of writing has been fun but now Monday stares at me with a mean look. I dont know why but im sort of excited about tomorrow, probably because am sending my story again to another publication house.

Though it was a good weekend and tomorrow is an important day, I feel sad rigth now. For no reason. I need a hug, I do.

Im not sleepy but I think I should go to bed for I dont want Gotham city to torture me. Goodnight world!!!!

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Why Little, why wont you sleep?

Its 3am and I have work tomorrow. Why am I up? Was watching HoP. Cute movie but now I’m wondering why couldn’t I wait for weekend.
Okay! So I guess am screwed tomorrow. Already my boss was all angry bird on me today.

I miss Snowy.

Better go now. Goodnight World!

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its almost 3 am and im not sleepy…!!!!

Not the kind of a day I was looking forward to after last night’s breakdown.
So many things happened today. Weirdest day, one of the weirdest one I must say.

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Painted so blue, wish i knew the reason too…!!!!

I want to watch a movie that I have already seen before, any movie would do but I have none because I lost all my movies when my laptop’s drive crashed. So here I am just wishing I had copied them in a pen drive for a day like today.

You know what’s my favorite place? My car. It’s the only place I feel better. Today I didn’t wanted to come home, no I wasn’t thinking of running away, I just wanted to drive around little more. The distance between my work place and my house is like 5 or 8 minutes. Driving was calming me down but I realized I was almost home, so I took a U-turn and decided to take a long cut. I drove back to one of my favorite shops near my office, bought me something to eat and came back home.

When I’m home I’m stressed and worried, when I’m at work I’m lost and bored; my car is the only place right now where I feel safe.

To be honest I have no idea why am on verge of crying, really have no idea or maybe I do. Even a tiny incident with ability to make me sad magnifies when my mind is all sleep deprived. Maybe that’s what it is. My inability to process things correctly because my mind is all sleep deprived.

One more day left before I can throw away my pretenses and sulk in my room.

If only I was just another regular 27 year old girl but I’m not. I’m freaking messed up, immature, crappy 27 year old who likes to dream with her eyes open because the one she sees when asleep only show her the reality of things.

I know what I need. I need to sleep. I need to stop killing my mind.

Before I leave: here is an amazing amazing performance by David Garrett. Man! He is good.

A part of my mind works 24/7 placing happy placards infront of me..just in case…!!!!

Sometimes when im online and I browse through sites or blogs and see the big happy quotes, motivational words and inspirations words in big font, I smile and wonder how any of them can make any difference in my life.

Sure, being positive is always good and inspirational words always remind you that but truth is, its not meant for me. All the speeches in the world cant do a thing for me, believe me when i say that. Eventually im meant to sink and even if I do place happy & motivational posters in my room, all over my bed, I cant deny they are not meant for me.

Well, I just saw an episode of Revenge and man I had tears, like real tears, in my eyes. Never thought I would cry watching an episode of Revenge. Still sad.

I have to go now, my book is calling me but then I wonder if it’s a good idea to read at 1 am. I mean I have Gotham tomorrow and im already too low on my sleep quota.


This isnt for me..

This isnt for me..

But this one maybe...

But this one maybe…

Who doesn’t like to smile? i do, despite the fact that im used to being blue i like smiling and being awesome. But i wont deny the fact that it wont help me when i will wave the white flag.


a little love and sleep is what Little needs…!!!!

“I know darkness pulls on you

But it’s just a point of view

And when you are outside looking in

You belong to someone”

These are lines from Brandi Carlile’s song ‘Looking out’ and I often wonder if someone will ever say it to me, because maybe I do belong to someone. I just wrote a very angry post and deleted it because I don’t like myself when  I’m angry. I am a sad person but sometimes my blues make me hulk, in fact most of the time I go blue and then green. I don’t like people with temper and in last few years I have become one of them. I totally dislike being the green guy.

I have to go because I have to sleep and fix myself. I miss some people in my life.


I wanted to upload only one song  but while searching for this Glee song i found this one too and i love them both. The second one  makes me smile, O I love Glee, so im uploading this one too. And i dont like Bram…if you watch Glee you know what i mean.