Just came back from 20mins of rope skipping. Dont know how much it will affect my health, but it does help me escape the world for a while.
Usually I say I have no regrets in life, despite all the wrongs (as per the world’s definition) that I have done. But there is one regret. I regret that I have to lie and stay silent when people who love me question me and ask me reason for my actions. I end up lying or staying silent thus becoming the bad guy. Am not sure if my world, which is made of my loved ones, is strong enough to take the truth. No one can.
So life says ceasefire…I don’t know if its for a day or a week, but I know I can feel my pulse again and im breathing. Yay!
But stupid cold and fever won’t let me cherish the moment. Now, all I need to do is manage next 9 hours tomorrow and I have my two days of rest. No one knows what hit me and what went through my head except my one super friend. I don’t know what I would have without her, because I was losing my mind.
I wish there was some miracle for me, wish there was someone who would save me. But it’s a battle that I will lose and nothing can change that. So all I need is to make myself strong which crazy because I thought I was strong. Some Nights is my anthem right now as I listen to it on replay mode.
I cant live if im not living as me. Not being me can be lethal for me.
Okay people time for my medicine and a nap. Hope I wake up well enough to go to work, play Scrabble in evening and come home to series of episodes waiting for me. Fingers crossed!