Ask me again what love is and I’ll probably lie about it, with a poetry revolving around the moon and the stars, not wanting to scare you with the truth. Love, my darlin, is nothing but the ache that makes your heart hurt and beat at the same damn time…
Let’s talk about something, nothing, everything. Let’s talk. The pain, the denial, the lost game, the death of a will. Let’s talk about how we are not what we were and we didn’t even know when we changed. The hurt that is invisible and odourless. Let’s talk about the existence of cold black hearts with red color and soft warm skin. The failure and murder of a dream, let’s talk about what we want but won’t fight for.
I was tired &, as I came home, I fell on the bed and started playing with the TV remote. Browsing through movie channels, I found myself watching #girlinterrupted from somewhere in middle and I thought, clearly I was hit my 90s nostalgia, how we don’t have such cult movies anymore. How every movie now is about a remake of a good book or a superhero series continuation or just something that we won’t remember after few weeks or months.
I started missing 90s, my life back then, the feeling of discovering romcoms and flicks staring Winona Ryder or Meg Ryan or Jodie Foster, the adventure of watching The Mask over and over again, sniffing when Richard Gere scales the ladder with a bouquet of flowers in his mouth for Julia Roberts.
Maybe, just maybe, it’s not the movies of then and movies of now but the lingering memories of a life that was when I was busy falling for the cinematic classics.
Excuse the nostalgia of a girl who wish she could go back and rediscover the joy of watching #youvegotmail for the very first time.
Since all my guests have left and the wedding is over, I’m back to my world of peace, stories, fiction, sweet darkness and blogging. Its funny how comforting and sweet darkness and aloofness feels when I’m choking on pretenses among people who love me but don’t really know me.
Before I took the break I was awarded Liebster Blog Award nomination by lovely and super strong Jack Joseph’s Mom. I want to thank her for considering me worthy of the nomination and for being so kind. Jack’s Mom taught me loving what you lost is okay no matter if you are the only one grieving, no matter how much time it has been.
So thank you for the nomination my friend.
Rules are simple, say 11 things about yourself, answer 11 questions that have been asked by the person who nominated you and award the nomination to 11 people while creating 11 new questions for the nominees.
Okay here are the 11 things about me:
1- I have always been tomboyish and now that I look back I don’t think I ever thought I would own green, purple, white and electric blue pants. I wore nothing but blue denim and thought anything else was weird.
2- I can’t give up on coffee and junk food even though I was once hospitalized because of these things
3- I believe I have a split personality or something because I’m always a different person when I’m with people and a different person when I’m alone.
4- I lie a lot to people I love because it’s easy to lie than explain why I’m being difficult sometimes
5- I can’t stop having dreams where my Snowy comes back to me, had the first one the very next night of his demise
6- I think I will get a Tattoo soon, hopefully very soon
7- I want to win NanoWriMo for once
8- I want to meet MegRyan just once or Winona Ryder
9- I hated the very first cup of coffee of my life, hated it big time
10- I once wrote a play, which was chosen for the annual day event of our school. I also played a role in my own play. That was the first biggest achievement of my life where I felt proud of me, because I have always believed I’m the black sheep of the family.
11- I wish to be born as a singer in my next birth
Now the questions asked to me by Jack Joseph’s Mom
- What gets you up in the morning?
Earlier it used to my love my dog but now it’s my Alarm and my mom. If it was up to me I wouldn’t get up before 12 because I don’t like my work anymore.
- If you could go anywhere, anywhere, where would you go?
Ireland for many reasons and one of them being the movies I have seen
- If you saw a vehicle accident – would you stop? Why or why not?
I have tried to stop once when I saw one but by the time I came to halt I was far and had so much of traffic behind me. So I pulled aside and tried to see if the guy was okay and when I saw he was and people were helping him, I drove away because it was way too difficult for me to go back with the traffic and it being the one way lane.
- What is your most played song on your iPod (or whatever you listen to music on)?
I have blackberry phone my only access to music and I don’t know what the most played song is. You got me thinking, because I listen to songs all day while I’m working, even when I’m home and trying to work out, even now when I’m blogging and sometimes I listen to it while trying to sleep. All day I’m on my phone but I don’t know which song I listen to the most. Maybe For You by Angus and Julia. I think.
- What is your favorite way to exercise?
- If you could choose to be a certain age forever, what would it be and why?
I am scared of growing old but I don’t know which age I want to stop aging at.
- What would be your first purchase if you won the lottery?
If I win a lot of it like crazy lot of it I would buy a car for my brother. He is crazy and irritating and we fight a lot but I would still buy him a nice sexy car, because I know it would make him ultra happy. If I win not that much, then I would probably buy a bigger place for my parents. I know they don’t like this small apartment that much.
If only I was rich enough to buy them a bigger place.
- What celebrity do you get mistaken for?
No one but I would love to imagine myself as MegRyan or Avril Lavigne.
- What is the hardest thing you ever had to do?
Say goodbye to my Snowy. He died on 1st of March right in front of me in my bed. He was ill, in pain and died and there was nothing I could do. When I touched him, he had stopped breathing and he felt cold like he was no longer there. I can’t get over that day. I miss him so badly and it kills me when I enter home after a long day because he is no longer there to hug me, welcome me and tell me I was missed.
- What would be your most perfect meal? Not just breakfast, lunch or dinner… but what would be on the plate/table.
If I have to name an Indian dish I would say Kadi Chawal with pickle and if I have to name universal one then its Pasta anyday…Pasta with mushroom would be great.
- What is your most favorite memory?
So many of them. My interview day has to be the winner for now. My Team Lead welcomed me inside the interview room with a smile and I realized there is nothing to be afraid of. Since then she has not only become my mentor my best friend but my sister too. And this job made me grow up as a person, learn things, become independent and see pride in my parent’s eyes even though it’s a small job. That day is memorable for it became the door to many amazing days.
Now people I want to nominate:
My 11 questions:
Friends or The Big Bang Theory or How I Met Your Mother? What’s your pick?
Do you judge people based on their country or religion?
Are you a morning person or night owl?
What was the craziest profession you had on your mind as a kid?
Beatles or Beiber? What you prefer?
Do you read news everyday?
What’s your favourite crazy fun thing to do when by yourself?
Do you enjoy going out without umbrella in rain?
If left alone in a big shopping mall with lots of money, what would you buy clothes or gadgets? You cant have both.
Have you ever made a mix tape?
What’s your favourite book?