Where did the good go?

I was tired &, as I came home, I fell on the bed and started playing with the TV remote. Browsing through movie channels, I found myself watching #girlinterrupted from somewhere in middle and I thought, clearly I was hit my 90s nostalgia, how we don’t have such cult movies anymore. How every movie now is about a remake of a good book or a superhero series continuation or just something that we won’t remember after few weeks or months.

I started missing 90s, my life back then, the feeling of discovering romcoms and flicks staring Winona Ryder or Meg Ryan or Jodie Foster, the adventure of watching The Mask over and over again, sniffing when Richard Gere scales the ladder with a bouquet of flowers in his mouth for Julia Roberts.

Maybe, just maybe, it’s not the movies of then and movies of now but the lingering memories of a life that was when I was busy falling for the cinematic classics.

Excuse the nostalgia of a girl who wish she could go back and rediscover the joy of watching #youvegotmail for the very first time.

Drop the frown dude…!!!!

Do you ever feel that the whole purpose behind existence of some things, in life, is only to make you smile and keep going…

I personally believe that this movie was made for me…

Universe’s way of saying ‘Drop the frown dude…’ 

Happy Birthday Meg Ryan…Thank you for you!!!!!

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Blame it on You’ve Got Mail, Kathleen Kelly and my ADD…!!!!

Batman just had a long weekend with her person. I know I’m screwed at so many levels and my future is a bright dark wallpaper but right now, right here I’m in my happy place. Sometimes I wonder what would I do without my person.

Little sad that I’m going back to my city today, but dude I needed this break. For now I’m grateful for the weekend.

P.S I have decided to blame my obsession for Starbucks on You’ve Got Mail, Kathleen Kelly and my ADD…!!!!

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Journey towards the bright light at the end of the tunnel continues…lets hope its not a train!!!!

My 31st and 1st and 2nd and 3rd and 4th all came and went with a swooshy sound, I didn’t get time to sit and ponder on how 2014 was and what my 2015 resolutions would be. Last year was relatively kind to me, but I did lose a friend in the crowd of expectations and lies. A friendship drowned somewhere causing an irreparable damage. Minus that I did fine with the standards tears, pain and heartache. I did drop to a whole new level of blues when I discovered new dark face of mine, but that’s no biggie. Apart from the usual, it wasn’t a nice year in terms of health. Yep! Definitely that’s where 2014 screwed up big. Overall, 2014 was decent, kinder and a snatcher for it snatched a friend.

When every day is a struggle some years prove too kind not because they tore you up little less, because you became little more immune and strong.

I did find a lot of new songs, new TV shows, a way back to my stories, few more novels on my shelf, new favourite pair of sneakers, some more scratches and dents on my car and introduction to Xanax. Walking into 2015 is more or like taking a blind turn on a dark rainy night, just not sure what to expect. Every year I hope I would bump into Dawn, I fear I would lose grip on the frays of hope and I wear faces that suffocate me. Maybe 2015 would be amazing, maybe it would be kind or maybe it would be my iceberg, I have no idea. Let’s destiny and universe do its thing, I have things to do too.

  • Find as many new songs as possible
  • Not to break my new phone (Oh yes big news Little is now HTC person Goodbye Nokia Windows)
  • Watch more movies of Jodie Foster
  • Drive slowly and more in control and safe and better and in any other way that would keep me away from repair shops
  • Buy a proper bookshelf or else my mom would sell away all the books lying around me
  • Read as many historical fiction as possible
  • Read at least one unread book in my book collection
  • Continue my relationship with happy food and coffee
  • Cheat on a fictional character by falling in love with another and another and another
  • Cry when no one is watching and put on my headphones when someone is watching
  • Watch You’ve Got Mail or any Meg movie on an impulse
  • Continue believing I’m a Vampire and stay up till late only to regret next afternoon at 3pm
  • Find a new donut to add to my confusion of what’s my favorite flavor
  • Finish editing at least one of my stories or just send an unedited version to a publisher for fun
  • Torture my body with worthless evening walks and jogging, despite knowing that Dunkin Donuts is where I belong

So, may be 2015 would be another 2014 or another 2013 or another 2012 or 11 or 10 or maybe it would be a whole new never seen totally mind boggling era…all I know, I’m a lone soldier battling a war and my resolutions are my weapon of defense against the unknown.

There is always another song to add to shuffle, another cup of coffee to put on Insta, another book to buy and another fictional character to fall in love with…

P.S leaving a fun remix by Bastille

I want to talk, but im dead tired…!!!!

As i sat in my car for 20-30 minutes melting in the heat while waiting for my parents to come back i wrote a big emotional post on Robin Williams and Windows for WordPress very smartly and magically made it all disappear. So i will write again but tomorrow. Right now I’m dead. I’m like a sleep deprived zombie.

Also, i want to share about The Killing and it finale. I cant thank Veena Sud enough for giving me the show and the closure. But tomorrow maybe.

Before i go and fall dead asleep, let me do share one thing. For the first time in my life i met a person who doesn’t like Meg Ryan or You’ve Got Mail. An intern in Gotham City. I was like NOOOOOoooooo.

Little wants a Kathleen Kelly Moment…!!!!

I feel sad, a different kind of sadness, like everyone around is moving too fast and changing into a better version of them but I am stuck to the place I’m standing.

I have started writing a story and this time I’m being honest, being me and I’m trying to put myself in there as a character because I need to share or talk.

Why can’t the world we live in be like the movies? Why can’t we have the dramatic happy ending where everything becomes alright no matter how sad it was? Why can’t life be “You’ve Got Mail” where Kathleen Kelly loses it all only to find Joe Fox walking up to her in the end as NY152? Why can’t life be “French Kiss” where Kate closes her eyes in that plane only to open them to Luc even though she never told him she loved him? Why can’t life be “Addicted to Love” where Maggie pushes Sam away because she is scared of getting hurt, in love, and yet he walks back to her?

Okay! I know I have only given examples of Meg Ryan’s movies but my point is simple why can’t life be like movies. Maybe in another life. Maybe this is the life where I would be the girl from Sucker Punch.

P.S Leaving you with a Brandi Carlile song and even if she is not your kind of music person, you got to listen to this one for that instrumental part that comes close to the end (4:49). Beautiful.